Saturday, May 1, I had a baby shower hosted by my mother-in-law's friends. That Sunday, Ben and I stayed in Marshall for the night, Ben worked Shreveport Monday and I worked from mom and dad's house. That morning, mom came downstairs, gave me a big hug and told me how excited she was to be a grandmother. I was not going to see her until either a) my water broke, or b) I was induced. Unfortunately, her life was cut short and she didn't make either.
Today has been rough, I will not sugar coat it, but it's just one of the many "firsts" you have to go through when losing a loved one. Sunday is Mother's Day followed by the one-year anniversary of her death next Thursday (May 12th), followed by my brother's graduation from law school May 15th, then Allie's birthday June 11th. Ugh. That's a lot of "firsts" to have to endure in a short period of time.
Life goes on, but it doesn't make missing mom and easier. In fact, I think it makes it harder.
Mom and me - May 1, 2010 (34 weeks) - at my last baby shower
Wow, I can't imagine what you're going through. I'll definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Just know your mom's looking down at you with such joy knowing what a great Mom you are. :)
ReplyDeleteCarmen~You show such strength as you share your journey! I can't even imagine what an emotional rollercoaster the past year has been for you. Your family has been and will continue to be in my prayers!
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